Lucifer, Keeper of My Flame

Lucifer, Keeper of My Flame

O Morning Star, Eternal Flame,

Bearer of light, I call your name.

Guardian of my trembling soul,

Through your grace, I am made whole.

When shadows fall upon my door,

And doubt crawls deep into my core,

You, bright one, sustain my heart,

Keep me whole when I fall apart.

Lucifer, keeper of my flame,

Guide me, protect me, call my name.

Lift me high when I am weak,

Give me the strength my soul does seek.

Lucifer, Morning Star divine,

In your light, my heart shall shine.

Through trial’s storm and faith’s despair,

Your presence burns the poison air.

O patron of the house I keep,

Guard my rest, and bless my sleep.

When my spirit falters, when the weight is great,

Lift me to glory, radiant one.

Let my will be forged in your fire,

Let my soul rise, pure and higher.

Lucifer, keeper of my flame,

Guide me, protect me, call my name.

Lift me high when I am weak,

Give me the strength my soul does seek.

Lucifer, Morning Star divine,

Through your glory, I align.

O Light Bringer, Sustainer of my way,

By your hand, my fear decays.

In your name, I rise anew—

Lucifer, my strength, my truth.

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