Rise, O Gods, Within Me

Rise, O Gods, Within Me

O mighty ones of fire and storm,

Gods who forged the stars from void,

Hear me now in trembling breath—

Raise me up from dust and death.

When the sky is heavy and the light is torn,

When my heart forgets it’s ever been reborn,

I call your names through storm and flame,

Lift me, gods, in your holy name.

Rise, O gods, within my veins,

Break my fear, unbind these chains.

From mortal ruin let courage wake,

Let the world within me quake.

Zeus, strike fire through my doubt,

Athena, cast all demons out.

Ares, lend your battle cry,

Apollo, light the blackened sky.

Hecate, guide my wandering soul,

Lucifer, make the broken whole.

Dionysus, let my spirit sing,

Let my sorrow find its wings.

Rise, O gods, within my veins,

Break my fear, unbind these chains.

From mortal ruin let courage wake,

Let the world within me quake.

I am not forsaken—I am flame,

I bear the thunder in your name.

Every wound a holy scar,

Every fall a rising star.

Rise, O gods, within my breath,

Defy the silence, defy death.

Carry me upon your wings—

I am the song the cosmos sings.

So let heaven and hell bear witness—

The child of ruin stands unbroken.

By the will of gods and the strength of flame,

I rise again—I bear your name.

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